From: "Libby Foster"
Subject: Thank You
Thank you for the really nice email you sent.I ask
myself a hundred times a day why this is happening to
me, and I don't know.I guess it is just meant to be
Funny, when you are dying how so many things seem
significant all of a sudden--the sound of J Mum's
voice or the smile I get from those near me.I know
that going to England may buy me a little time, or it
may buy me none.I know the time frame I am looking at
if if buys me none, but, like my friend Lucy, I will
hold that card close to my chest.
I am really lucky.I have been to a lot of places in
the world and seen a lot of wonderful things, so I
have no complaints.
I am just so sorry I have been such a disappointment
to J Mum.She wanted a daughter so much--as much as I
wanted a mum.I have let her down in the worst
way--just as I have let Nancy and Olivia down.I tried
really hard, but I failed.
Anyway, I am taking a couple of days for myself before
I speak to J Mum again.I have a lot of things I need
to take care of.Tidying up my house I guess you can
Thank you for being so nice to me.I will email again