From: "Libby Foster"
Subject: Stuff again
Thanks for your email.
I don't think I will get back to the US.I really don't
think I have a lot of time left.I think my body is
really really tired.
As for J Mum, I worry terribly.It is not fair that I
have so much within reach but just out of my reach at
the same time.
I chatted online with her last night her time.(I
thought all three of you would be there), and once
again I was in tears.So was she.She told me that XXXXX
wants to do a painting of me when I get home.That is
so hard to hear.There is nothing in this world that I
want more than to get home and smell the eucalypt
trees and hear the kookaburras, but I have to be real
She keeps asking me if I am going to get home...like I
am choosing NOT to go.I have troubles walking across
the yard let alone sitting on a plane for 30 hours.
Yes, Sasha is a good friend.Not many would choose to
do what she is doing.She refuses to go anywhere until
I am where I am supposed to be one way or another.
Yes, I think my mum is waiting for me, but I am sure
she did not want it to be so soon or like this.I sense
that she is really distressed by it all.
So, in the meantime, I am trying to be the brave girl
that I should be, and I am trying not to upset J Mum
any more than I already have, but that is really
hard.She asks questions and I am a rotten liar.She
asked me if I knew how long I would have without
marrow and I simply told her that I would probably not
see my 18th.I have a better idea of things, but will
not reveal all.
Anyway,I am glad she has you and Lissa to look after
her.Check in on Lissa too, will you guys? She emailed
yesterday and said she had not sent an email earlier
as she has had headaches for 4 days.That is not
good.She said the computer screen hurt her eyes, yet
she took the time to email me.That was really nice.It
is good that the three of you have each other.
Anyway, until later,