More Head Games

Date: Tue, 23 Aug 2005 06:35:34 +1000 (EST)
From: "Julian Anderson" tinknjules@yahoo.com.au
Subject: Re: Today
To: XXXXX
Hi XXXXX
Well the black day draws to a close. It was one of the hardest days yet I think. I slipped your letter into her pocket for you.I put her violin in as well. I put Max's tennis raquet in with him, and one of the many love notes Nik writes to him that I found doodled into a pad of paper.
I know I'm going to hit rock bottom, and I will hold myself together for just another few days, then I'll allow myself to sink, and sink I will I'm sure.
I'm thinking of going to Mrs Mac's chair around 6:30 AM Sydney time Friday morning--before a lot of people are about.You don't think that Friday is too soon do you? I know Nik wouldn't want me to beat around the bush as I'd like to.
Claire will be ok with things. She is distraught and offered to come here to fly back with me, but I said the support when I get there will be fine. I think I'll need to do a bit of leaning on them.
Yes Sasha has cracked. Poor kid has taken a lot of loss in a few short years. She'll be ok though because she's being looked after. Maybe she needed to bottom out too.
Meanwhile I say prayers for Liv because she has absolutely no closure. I just pray he didn't go off and do something in depression or something, leaving this woman wondering.
Well XXXX I am going to go and have a cognac and a smoke, then I'm going to go to bed and end this day. I will go pick them up tomorrow for a last night here in the house.
Take care of yourself
Julian
P.S: Lots of photos I have. I've got a nice one from when we went to Monaco--just let me know when you want it.