Joanna Lumley as "Nikki"

Date: Mon, 3 Apr 2006 19:48:42 +1000 (EST)
From: "Livvy"
Subject: This
To: XXXXX@yahoo.com
Hi XXXXX
Joelle sent me this. Some local had it amongst photos taken somewhere...Nik was in the background. This would have been early August.She looks unwell here so I'm thinking it was just after a treatment
Love and Light
Liv

Sick and CRUEL!

Date: Thu, 18 Aug 2005 11:20:51 +0200 (CEST)
From: "Joelle Reynaud"
Subject: Tr: Put in Folder For XXXXX
To: XXXXXXXXX@yahoo.com
Chere XXXXXX
Pardon my English is not good.
I give promise to friend, and have promised I did not read.This most recent sent in place of others, sent just two weeks before now.Others deleted as instructed. Letters came often, always to replace last.
You were good friend to her. She loved and often spoke of girl in U.S.
Joelle Reynaud


Date: Wed, 17 Aug 2005 13:52:44 +1000 (EST)
From: "Nikkohlina"
Subject: Put in Folder For XXXX
To: joelle_reynaud@yahoo.fr
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My Dearest XXXX
Every so often I write a new letter to you email it to Joelle, and have Joelle delete the previous one. She will send you this when I'm gone, and I know she will not have read it, so my words to you will remain private.
I write to you now as I am in France. It is very early in the morning and the sun is just coming up--a beautiful morning.
I'm writing this before my visit there, and if you are getting this before that time, I am so sorry that I left you and broke a promise. You know that I would never break a promise to you, and if I did, there must have been good reason I hope.
I just want to tell you how truly special you are to me, and how much I love you my darling girl.I hope you aren't angry with me for leaving. Sometimes things are just out of our hands.
I feel sad thinking right now that if you are getting this before my visit, I missed out on so many things...a hug, a chance to sit and have a long talk, fun at Disney and getting to know those precious babies of yours and maybe getting a real hug from a child I love just once in my life.
You are the daughter I never had, and that I wish I had. I really truly feel that you were my child at one time in some lifetime before--I love you that deeply.
I could never say that to you because I didn't want to sound crazy or like that horrible woman who told Libby such things. But, somehow when I found you, I filled a hole in my heart.
I wanted to be around to see you happy, and my god I hope I did. I promised you I would never go anywhere until I did.
I sit here writing this with tears streaming down my face at the mere thought of letting you down.
If that has happened, please please get the help you need. Do it for me, if not for you. If you feel you just can't take it anymore, go outside, look up and say Nikki help me, and I hope I can somehow give you strength. After all, my darling, I will never leave you.
I have left instructions that I will be cremated wherever I happen to leave, and then taken to Mrs. Mac's chair early one morning and let free. I don't want anyone to be there except the one who is doing it, and I want no tears from everyone else. I don't want any ceremony, I don't want flowers or funeral notices. I just want to quietly drift away from my favourite spot. Music will be Dream Star by Bond.I decided against Dharamsala because Sydney is just more accessible, and that is where I met my beloved Max and shared a happy life with him.
As for my beloved Max, please I beg you to look after him somehow. Send him emails,maybe have him visit you or something...you will all work it out. Just don't let him slip into the cracks. Remember how much he meant to me and do that for me.
Maybe you could email Jules once in awhile too...he means a lot to me as well.
A year to the day after I leave I will go to my favourite spot and spend the day there. If you happen to go on that day and a breeze from nowhere ruffles your hair, that will be me.
I have always said that everything happens for a reason and I suppose my leaving will have had a reason as well. Fate is fate, and cannot be changed. I think all along I have felt very deep down inside that I am fated to leave suddenly. I left Sydney feeling this and as I type this, I still feel it. I just pray the end wasn't painful because that is one of my worst fears. I've always said I hoped I'd quietly slip away in my sleep and I hope that at least in that, fate was kind. I also hope it was being held by my beloved.
I have this for you:
Best of Friends
Sometimes friends have to leave
It's sad, but true
But this I do believe
They stay a part of you
And if I go away
To live some other place
I will think of you each day
And see your smilin' face
And I will always be your friend
No matter where you are
Just around the bend
Or very, very far
Wherever you will go
When you reach your journey's end
No matter what
I'll always be your friend
I will always be your friend
Although we're far apart
I'll see you in my dreams
And feel you in my heart
And though the years may fly
I know we'll meet again
And when we do
I still will be your friend
I'll always be your truest friend


I hope you can take some comfort in that my darling girl. I will always be there. You will be fine, you will be happy, you will laugh and smile again without even trying.Remember these words I have always loved:
Live well
Laugh often
Love much

I hope you can keep a little spark of memory of me in your mind because it would be wonderful to be remembered with fondness.
Thank you for making my life a bit brighter while I was going through the nightmare of cancer and chemo and all of that other stuff that went on. You have no idea how much you mean to me, and I doubt you will ever fully understand.As far as I was concerned, you were my daughter--I just didn't get to give birth to you and raise you.
Je vous aimerai pour toujours mon fille aimée.
Affectueusement
Nikki
XOXOXOXOXOX

Yeah, LIV as in Olivia Newton-John

Date: Wed, 8 Jun 2005 16:45:09 +1000 (EST)
From: "Livvy" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Nik
To: XXXXXXXXX@yahoo.com
Hi XXXXX
I don't know if you would have read Max's email before now (I noticed he sent it probably late in your evening) Anyway, I rang Nik, and he's right--she is very down today. I don't know why she is so low--I don't think it's all to do with the radiation. I think her thoughts are running rampant again.
I told her I am going to be there tomorrow (Thursday Sydney time) and take her out. We will do some girly stuff--maybe get our hair and nails done or something. I plan to fly in on an early flight so I can be at her house around the time she gets back from the hospital.
Will keep you posted. (I'll make sure she has a good day, ok?)
Love and Light
Liv
P.S: Sasha isn't doing the greatest, but she is trying--Janine has got her into some treatment program so hopefully she will soon be on the mend. I'll keep you posted on that one too!

Date: Wed, 5 Mar 2003 16:39:55 +1100 (EST)
From: "Libby Foster" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Thank You
To: XXXXXXXX

Dear XXXXX,
Thank you for the really nice email you sent.I ask
myself a hundred times a day why this is happening to
me, and I don't know.I guess it is just meant to be
this way.
Funny, when you are dying how so many things seem
significant all of a sudden--the sound of J Mum's
voice or the smile I get from those near me.I know
that going to England may buy me a little time, or it
may buy me none.I know the time frame I am looking at
if if buys me none, but, like my friend Lucy, I will
hold that card close to my chest.
I am really lucky.I have been to a lot of places in
the world and seen a lot of wonderful things, so I
have no complaints.
I am just so sorry I have been such a disappointment
to J Mum.She wanted a daughter so much--as much as I
wanted a mum.I have let her down in the worst
way--just as I have let Nancy and Olivia down.I tried
really hard, but I failed.
Anyway, I am taking a couple of days for myself before
I speak to J Mum again.I have a lot of things I need
to take care of.Tidying up my house I guess you can
call it.
Thank you for being so nice to me.I will email again
later.
Love Always,
Libby

When asked WHY....

Date: Sat, 24 Jun 2006 19:55:11 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Lissa"
To:
I don't have any answers at the moment.I don't know why I've done the things I've done. I've just spent 6 days being grilled and reprimanded and we are going to try to find out what went wrong with my head. What I was lacking in my life, and how I can get better.
For now, I'm pretty much barred from email in any other account but a joint one, so that I can be monitored. Same goes with phone calls. I deserve all I get dished out.
I'm a rotten horrible person and all I can say is how sorry I am, though I know that means nothing to you.
Somewhere along the line I cracked and lost it. My family life has been rotten but I haven't even noticed that. If I don't get my head straightened up, I will have nothing and nobody because I will be left.
I know you don't want to hear that I will get my head straightened and find out what's wrong with me, but I will.
I am a rotten mother to my kids, you're right. They truly don't deserve someone like me.
If I get into online chats again, I will lose my husband and kids, that is a definite. They've all I got now, so I have to get well in the head.
That will begin immediately.

She was good at scrapbooking her lies

Not sure if this is actually Joanna Lumley or Lissa went searching through cancer websites and decided to exploit this poor woman.

Created By the Loser Lissa

How sad and pathetic a life she must have. Certainly missing a few screws!!!!!

Here is how Lissa KILLED off Nikki and Max

Date: Thu, 18 Aug 2005 06:16:51 +1000 (EST)
From: "Julian Anderson" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
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Subject: Max and Nikki
To: livvyland@yahoo.com.au
Hello Girls
Excuse any spellling errors as I am writing this with shaking hands.
I needed to email you to tell you that earlier today Max and Nikki were in an accident.
They went to the beach and on their way back, were struck by a vehicle out of control.
Witnesses said Max threw himself at Nikki in an attempt to protect her, taking full impact. He was killed instantly.
Nikki was taken to hospital with severe injuries. She regained consciousness and demanded to see Max. It broke my heart because I had to tell he had gone. I've never heard anyone sob like that in my life and I hope I never do again.
At 7 PM this evening, Nikki left us as well. I wasn't even there with her because I had gone to get a damn coffee.
I'm so sorry to tell you this.
I'll let you digest this. If you want more details please email. Liv, don't ring me ok because I just can't right now.
Julian

Notice how she gets out of calling with this tragic news....she could fake an Australian woman but couldn't pull off phoning me as "Julian"

Lissa ....at her best.

This is a scrapbook page that "Niiki" made. She was undergoing chemo....You may recognize the woman in the photo. It is none other than Joanna Lumley.

Lissa is a sick and twisted woman

Date: Mon, 2 Aug 2004 12:56:07 +1000 (EST)
From: "I'm NO Goddess" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Nikki
To:
Dear
Nik told me she had a chat with you. She isn't mad I told you because I first told her I would tell you. (does that sound like it makes sense?)
Anyway, she probably didn't give you a lot of detail if I know her. Max says she has huge bruise on her cheekbone and another on her jawline. Her head had to have 3 stitches because he beat her around the head with a bunch of keys. He ripped her nightshirt and even ripped her underwear to gain access. She really is so ashamed, but I told her there is nothing to be ashamed of. I think the most humiliating part was telling the police what had happened and being examined in the hospital while they gathered evidence. She is SO lucky Max heard her or she would have been raped for certain. And in that neighbourhood, the houses are far enough apart that her voice probably wouldn't have carried far.
I know she was so shaken after the jerk ran off that Max actually carried her into the house so he could call the police. In her humiliation she had to hand her nightie and underwear over to the police for evidence which absolutely mortified her. You have to remember that Nik is a LADY and that would have been awful to do.
Don't freak if you don't have a letter from her when you wake--I told her she has to rest and put things out of her head for a bit. We don't need email that badly that she should feel she has to do it so we don't worry.
Martin thinks she is still in shock, so the reality of it all should hit any moment I imagine. She is with him right now and she sent Max to his presentation.
She is a very strong woman, and thank god she didn't have a heart attack. If she hadn't had that heart procedure awhile ago, she surely would have had a massive coronary.
Love and Light
Liv

Twisted

Date: Mon, 2 Aug 2004 07:14:49 +1000 (EST)
From: "I'm NO Goddess" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Nik
To:
Dear
I just talked to Nik and she said she just emailed you but didn't tell you what is going on because she is ashamed, but she was assaulted yesterday. I told her I was going to tell you.
She decided to go get the newspaper and it was left on the ground outside her gate . She opened the gate and he was there. He shoved her back inside the yard, slammed her against her fence, punched her a few times then he touched her.
Luckily in her panic, Nik threw up on him. She yelled for Max and he came running which sent that animal running as well.
Anyway Nik was checked out, is bruised but all right. They even did a trace of her heart because it was racing but that is all right too.
As for the animal, the police have him in custody.
I just wanted to tell you. I tried to send you a message but you're not online.
Nikki didn't tell you because she said that she thinks you don't really want to be her friend anymore. I hope that isn't true. I don't think it IS true, but I hope it isn't. She keeps so much inside to save others worry.
I don't know what is making Nikki think that, but she does have a really strong sense of intuition. She can ALWAYS tell when something is up with me--even in an email that says nothing about it.
I hope it's something you both sort out. She is a good soul and would give you her very heart if you needed it to survive.
I better go. My teapot is whistling and is going to boil dry if I don't.
Love and Light
Liv

Lissa as "Max" the oh so devoted husband

Date: Mon, 16 May 2005 19:50:45 +1000 (EST)
From: "Max" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Nikki
To:
Hello
Nikki's doctor rang. She is going to need a lumpectomy and that will be done on Friday. She is going to need chemo again as well.
We are both reeling a bit but she will be fine. She will email in the morning. I am going to take her for a drive now for some air.
Regards
Max

Libby-the invented 17 year old....

Date: Thu, 13 Mar 2003 15:00:30 +1100 (EST)
From: "Libby Foster" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
Subject: Stuff again
To:

Dear,
Thanks for your email.
I don't think I will get back to the US.I really don't
think I have a lot of time left.I think my body is
really really tired.
As for J Mum, I worry terribly.It is not fair that I
have so much within reach but just out of my reach at
the same time.
I chatted online with her last night her time.(I
thought all three of you would be there), and once
again I was in tears.So was she.She told me that XXXXX
wants to do a painting of me when I get home.That is
so hard to hear.There is nothing in this world that I
want more than to get home and smell the eucalypt
trees and hear the kookaburras, but I have to be real
too.
She keeps asking me if I am going to get home...like I
am choosing NOT to go.I have troubles walking across
the yard let alone sitting on a plane for 30 hours.
Yes, Sasha is a good friend.Not many would choose to
do what she is doing.She refuses to go anywhere until
I am where I am supposed to be one way or another.
Yes, I think my mum is waiting for me, but I am sure
she did not want it to be so soon or like this.I sense
that she is really distressed by it all.
So, in the meantime, I am trying to be the brave girl
that I should be, and I am trying not to upset J Mum
any more than I already have, but that is really
hard.She asks questions and I am a rotten liar.She
asked me if I knew how long I would have without
marrow and I simply told her that I would probably not
see my 18th.I have a better idea of things, but will
not reveal all.
Anyway,I am glad she has you and Lissa to look after
her.Check in on Lissa too, will you guys? She emailed
yesterday and said she had not sent an email earlier
as she has had headaches for 4 days.That is not
good.She said the computer screen hurt her eyes, yet
she took the time to email me.That was really nice.It
is good that the three of you have each other.
Anyway, until later,
Love Libby

Wretched Idiot Still Full of Crap.....

Date: Sat, 17 Jun 2006 17:54:48 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Lissa" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
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YES.YES.YES It makes me sick. I'm a total wretched idiot.I know that. I've totally made my life hell now, and yours as well.I know that.Sorry isn't enough, I know.
You will never speak to me again and I SO deserve that.I've lost my sister because I was insanely stupid.
I should not be allowed to live--I know that.I am a totally worthless human being.I know that. How I was going to end it, I don't know--I would have had to fess up eventually.
Libby WAS a someone. I didn't invent her.
When she left I guess I just tried to fill the void--in a very stupid, stupid way.I know that.
I've told Dennis everything. I am going to get some help--truly I am.
I am banned from any kind of online chats with anyone ever again. My computer time will be limited to where he can watch me.
I am basically under house arrest, and I totally deserve it.
On our return home, my computer will be "relocated" to Dennis' work so I can be supervised. I totally deserve that too.

Found Out

Date: Sat, 17 Jun 2006 15:11:01 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Lissa" Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert
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Subject: Read This PLEASE
To:
Dear
I am a horrible person, I think we've both decided that one.
I HONESTLY started to do all this to make you feel better, and you were, and that was making me happy. Believe it or not, I just wanted to see my friend happy.
It got so so out of hand that I had to try and end it, and god help me that made it a million times worse.
I know you hate me and I know you will never speak to me again, but I am so so sorry from the bottom of my heart.
I will send you money via paypal towards your medical bills just as soon as I get my next paycheque next week and I will continue to do so until you tell me not to.
I've told Dennis and he is really angry with me. I don't think I'll be using the computer much anymore. I'll be lucky if it even stays in the house.
I will see someone for help, I promise.
I don't know what I can say apart from I'm rotten.What kind of person does this to someone she loves probably more than her own sister? I never ever meant for it to get SO out of hand--I swear.
I promise I will give you all the money I earn towards your medical bill, but I know that can't erase what I have done.
I loved seeing you happy--it made me feel really good--for all the wrong reasons, I know. I was just trying to bring some happiness into your life because I know you weren't the happiest. I just did it in a really bad bad way.
I know I can't ask for forgiveness, but believe it or not I DO love you like a sister. I'm just completely horrible...a rotten human being that will surely rot in hell.
I can't even say I feel better I confessed to you (and I HAD to do it on the phone and not by email) because I know how much I have hurt you.
I will send you some money as soon as I get back from our week away. It won't be a nice week, that's for sure. It will be very heavy.
I just hope my kids don't find out what kind of mother they have. They don't deserve someone like me, that's for sure.
I'm sure someday I will get what I deserve, and I WILL deserve whatever I get. I know that.
I don't know what to write here anymore. I can't express in words how awful I feel, and I know you won't be able to express in words how angry and upset you are.
I am a pathetic human being. I know that for fact. I've always felt stupid, fat and useless, so I guess it was really nice for awhile to make someone else feel good about themselves. NO excuse I know, but it's fact.
Lissa

List of "invented" personalities

1. Sandy Foster (50 something woman with cancer-"dead" in 2002
2. Libby Foster (17 year old daughter of Sandy-had leukemia as a child and again after losing her mother)
3. Nikki Reynolds (60 year old woman, played in the Sydney Orchastra. Killed in Aug 2005 in the South of France. Hit by a car after her husband "Max" jumped in front of her...
4. Sasha Harris (20 something mother of three girls living in Malibu.)
5. Max (devoted husband to Nikki)
6. Julian Anderson (best friend to Nikki and Max) Professional photographer
7. Joelle Reynolds (sister in law to Nikki and Max) Living in South France
8. Rachel Austin (sister to Julain)

Here are the real people she pretented to be:
1. Nancy Chuda
2. Olivia Newton-John

Intro

I have set up this blog to expose a woman who is a cyberpath. She obviously hates her life so much she created a fantasy world and sucked me into it....during the time I knew her she invented as many as 8 different personalities. What is fact and what is fiction? Well, I know for a fact she is a wife and mother (of 2).